AmpEd. TweaKeD. PhReakED.

Ok, I'll make my short little story about the vision now.

Late evening / night, around 10 PM or so? on a saturday night. I'm walking through a grassy plain, going to get my usual smoke in, when alluva sudden I black out. I dunno if I fell or not, but I just saw black.

Then white. Oh, much white. But red mixed in. I saw more now...someone..like an older me..laying there. Blood is seeping from his throat and forehead. He has a knife in one hand (a large one, I dare add) and a handgun in the other. The person lays there, spilling blood onto a perfect white floor. Then, darkness again, followed by conciousness.
At the time of said dream, I was not high, drunk, wasted, etc. I was normal. No sleep deprivation, weird diet shit, etc.
It took a full pack of cigarettes to recover after that one..

But wait, it doesn't end just yet!
Monday morning, about 5:30 or so. When I touched the warm shower water, the images of the blood and such hit me again. I almost fell, but continued on with it.

Thus ends my hallucinative state. Medication next!
Drug tested: Adderall XL 20 mg (2x of such, 40mg total)
Active ingredient: Amphetamine (lower form of meth) and salts.

Result: I have to right a story for this result. It worked. Too well.

I took it around 7 that day, when someone gave it to me. About 8 or so, it kicked in. And I mean kicked in. My entire day went by fast. I seemed to enjoy the work, and I aced everyone in math class (it's like an overclock for the brain! omg!)

The effects of this drug continued all day and into the night. Cutoff (or at least noticable cutoff) time of the effects was around 1 AM or so. I never slept that night. I only ate a salad, an apple, and a little brownie thing. All day. That's 400-600 calories spanned over 24 hours total. It's insane.

Effects I felt:
--sense of well-being (like, a constant relaxation, yet a constant ecstacy)
--much greater sense of response, speed (definitely noticable)
--improvements in mental, physical, and social performance

Overall, it lasted around 18 or so hours. These effects were felt until morning. I did not sleep.

So, for that one, I had a hangover day today!
todays problems:
--lack of sleep
--no ability to concentrate
--stomach pains

but it was worth it. I came down around the evening.

So, now I know: either get some stomach medicine too or just take one.

As for the rest, I'm thinking of going on an anti-anxiety prescription. I'm sick of this. I can't make myself feel better. Nobody can.

Don't do drugs, do prescriptions!

Booyakasha

End of first week school.
Type like special person.

School funnish. Food good. Sleep meh.
Same shit.

About that drink

Yes...about that drink I needed. i got it.
Today is closing off, but aside from that, it's almost here. I'm ready, and PSYCHED! YEAH!

At school, touch me twice, it's the first day.

*yawn*

well...lets see.. I'm gettin ready for school. Found my old cutting pack! I'm gonna put it somewhere safe and hard to access, for security. I'm PSYCHED. and slightly buzzed. I need a drink.

Schedule

Well, I had a good week. Here be me schedule v_v
Template (for those who can't put 3 and 9 together to get 13)
Period: Class -Teacher (Comments)

Semester I:
1: French III -King (yay... I get to see Riz next door)
2: Accel Alg II -Duff (math...)
3: Biology -Hogan (PETA!)
4: US History -Keil (I sense a smelly smell of Bias!)
5: Journalism I -Stagnaro (I didn't even sign up for it!)
6: Health -Wertz (I sense Bitch >.<)
7: Web Design II -Hodges (easy A)
8: English II A -Kowaleski (meh)

Semester II:
1: French III -King
2: Accel Alg II -Duff
3: Biology -Hogan
4: US History -Keil
5: Chem I Dbl. -Mayer
6: ~~~~~~~~~~
7: Autocad I -Franz (Amazing... I net send the network and they let me in a high-cost program.)
8: English II A -Kowaleski


*yawn* no study hall... figures.

yawn

it's fine I suppose. A friend's been over for a few days now.
Less then a week left. OMG HAX!

meh

God... what an interesting week its been. I guess. I dunno.

Nya!

today + yesterday = fine

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yep. no real comments here. I spent a few hours on that almighty cursed hard drie, only to have 2 hours of soldering work ruined. I should start converting to some other religion. I think it's been overtaken by microsoft and Mandriva, both of which are similar, but I dunno yet. I shall find out soon enough.

spent most of the day at the mall with Jackie and Shelby. Got some pins. It was a good time.
I realized I am really uptight, but oh well.

INDIE SUX, HARDLINE SUX, EMO SUX, YOU SUCK!
-message brought to you by anti-flag-
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got up. went outcide. ate a poptart and milk. got online.
will go to YMCA later. I'd just hate to see that one christian guy there again. fucking pastor and preacher shit. "Hey, look at me, I'm teaching about Jesus!"
thats great. what a nice world needs. more lies.

anyhow, I might work on my harddrive more tomorroww. maybe.
out
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+1,-1,+1,-1,+1. so I somehow end with 0 O.o

Yep, no lie. pizza (+1), mowing lawn (-1), Half Life 1: Source (+1), printer setup (-1). UT2k4 on a *nix b0x: priceless (or 0wn4g3, whichever).

I am teh uber dork God. PH33R M3!

~A romance of the cendrillon~

Good song ^_^; I've been posting on Jref recently, so I guess I sorta-somehow-kinda-returned. My minister/psych guy is an ass. I've just ignored him the whole session and everything works out fine. I haven't ahd a cigarette for weeks. My lungs feel normal and my head feels horrible. Withdrawal sucks.

As does my emotions. yeah...time to get in touch with my sensitive side again.

OMFG! NO FREEDOM!

you heard me. My parents are home. all week. I might get out more, but I suffer evermore. *sigh*
back to incense and pills for the while.

EDIT: new template. my old one was getting pretty dull. I'm working on a replacement soon. so sit tight.